Dabbling in the Law of Attraction vs Letting it Transform your life

Aha!  Now I have really caught your attention with that title, haven't I?  Yup, it is time to take it to a deeper level.  That will be the theme for this month (February 2012).  It's time to talk about committing...committment...taking it to a deeper or higher level.  Oh I hate this!!!  Don't you?  Don't you just hate the part when you have been doing this exercise program and all of a sudden, after months of excellent results, the "same old" routine is just NOT giving you results anymore?  You know what you need to do.  And so you suck-it-up and change the program to take what you have established and created...to the next level.  You have to do it if you want to continue with forward growth.  You see the end goal but achieving it is not as easy as it looked 10 months ago. 

So look back at where you started and realize and praise yourself because you have really changed some things!  If it is an exercise routine, undoubtedly you have gained muscle mass, lowered your BMI and possibly lost weight (as in fat)?  Your clothes feel better....heck, you have new clothes!  People are treating you differently I bet, because they do that when a person becomes thinner or healthier-looking.  It is unfair, I know, but human nature.  So take stock of your achievements and give yourself credit and praise yourself because there is a chance that no one else will do it.  Yup.  I am serious.  You may have overcome the biggest obstacle of your life and it may be noticeable from the outside and yet, you may get no cheers for it...no congratulations for your success.  In case that happens to you, give it to yourself because you really do deserve it.

For me, reflecting through 2011 and up to now, many things are new and different then they were in February 2011.  In fact, my whole outlook on life is completely altered from one year ago.  I deem this as improvement overall...absolutely improvement, no doubt!  I think I have recapped my year in prior blog entries and I don't want to repeat myself but lets have a glimpse:
January 2011 I was working 7 days a week (supplementing my regular job by a weekend call center job)
February 2011 I hated that job for stealing all my free time.  My daughter asked me to let her audition for an acting opportunity which turned into Camp from February through March. 
March 2011 She gained representation with Model Club
June she got her first acting job and my daycare business had an upswing in business for thr entire summer
September 2011 I helped form CBA Group
October 2011 I was headhunted to be a paid blog-writer
November my daughter got a lead role in school play ( a program she petitioned for and we had been working on visualizing into existance since January.
January 2012..now...lots of stuff going on just below the surface for me.

Ok, so little glimpse of what my physical or life transformation looked like from January to January 2011 to 2012.  When you do that for your own life, what do you observe?  What I did not write down were the thoughts I had during the changes I experienced or the new people who have entered into my inner circle. The people and thoughts and subtle inner shifting is so much more valuable to me then the larger changes I have told you about above.  It is always the little things that make the biggest difference.  I will compare it to the very small rudder of a very large ship.  We all know (from the Titanic) what the value of that tiny little rudder is.

The people we surround ourselves with and what input and words and ideas we allow to fill our mind, has all the power to transform us for better or worse.  What we read, we come to believe. 

So at what point do we move from dabbling in our understanding and knowledge of the Law of Attraction and really start to let our lives transform?  I personally believe that this happens at the point when we finally say to ourselves, honestly: "I will no longer let fear of the unknown stop me from jumping in wholeheartedly".  It comes down to committment and trust.  Do you commit yourself to the future you have dreamed-up or do you want to just dabble in the process of creating it?  Are you ready to put the real physical walls on the house or would you rather just draw-up the plans and then leave the building to others?
This is the point I find myself at.  I have been here before...many times I think.  A few times I have jumped.  Those times were hard for me.  A perfect example of this would be when I enrolled in college.  The admissions part was fun and the auditioning for the music scholarship was great and the applause of getting accepted and getting scholarship money and choosing the classes.  It was all great.  But then came the most difficult part for me.  Arriving at my dorm and moving in my stuff and watching my Dad leave...I knew I was totally and completely alone on this part of the road to my future.  I was terrified and I felt sick and I was violently ill from it but somehow I trudged on and slowly the campus became my home.  Soon I made new friends who made my life full and taught me new things and it is so easy for me now to forget how HARD it was to take that first initial step to do it.  It was SO...SO...So...hard.

Another great example was having a baby.  It is amazing when you realize you have actually gotten pregnant and you start dreaming up the baby's life...their room...what private schools they will go to...LOL...and then at about the 8th month you realize suddenly that there is no turning back. Oh my goodness...there is NO turning back!  There is this tiny human being inside of you but inside of you it feels like there is this enormous creature and the very idea of how they are planning to exit the womb...horrifyingly scary!  Especially when it is your first child.  After the second child, it becomes easier because you overcame the fear of the first.  Confirmed your ability to master the process with 2nd child...and if there are more to come, they will be with far less fear. 

Our fears can trip us up at any stage in this process of creating the life we desire and believing that we can manifest the possibilities in our mind and in our hearts.  I love writing about this stuff.  But I want my Blog to have impact not because I understand ideas and share them, but because I inspire my readers through my own transformation process.  No one will care what I can say if I cannot live it myself! If I tell you I know the secret to maintaining the perfect body weight and yet I am still 50lbs over my perfect body weight then why on earth would you care if I know it or not?  I would not have proven that I could use what I know, so therefore, there is no value in my knowledge. 

I must decide now, what it is I truly want.  It is time to create the best vision for me...the one that really inspires my deepest happiness and then work towards that goal now...today...and keep building that "into the future".  Last night I attended an Introduction to Landmark Forum.  I was a guest of my friend Berta.  I promised her I would write about this today and she is looking forward to the recap.  It was such an oddball night and it felt like there were so many obstacles in our path.  Whenever I attempt to do something and then there are myriad obstacles in my path, I am not quick to give up...unless it was something I never really wanted to do in the first place or else I saw no value in the activity.  But since Berta and Sam and Bob have all been offerring me the advice to attend and because I am a first-hand witness of their transformations and the way they seem empowered to really take the actions they desire, I wanted to know more about it.

Just to get us on the road, Berta and I faced many challenges.  Finally on the drive out to Quincy and looking to be approximately 10 minutes late (which we were), we discussed th odd events of the day.  I cough it up to Mercury retrograding pulling us all backwards a bit but also sat'an who wants us to fail in our goals.  Then Berta tells me the Landmark course recently moved to a new location which we are discovering on this drive...a new place.  We see the number 1200 sprawled across a building on the street.  Sam has given Berta this address so my first (silent) thought is..."ooops...he gave her the wrong address and this is Citizens Bank and we are in the wrong place".  My second thought as we park and lock the car is, "oh well, me and Berta still got a girls night out from this and I am pretty sure we just passed and IHOP...hmmm, pancakes sound good." 

We get to the front of the building and by now I can smell those pancakes. Berta calles Bob to get a confirmation and I observe that the door to this bank is open...just a crack.  On the glass is the tiniest little ticker tape notification of the whereabouts of our Landmark Forum. 

All I could think was how ridiculously clever was this universal energy that brought us all the way to Quincy Ma tonite to eak through a cracked door in a bank, marked by the tiniest little "sign" if you will....after all the obstacles and the most unlikely scenarios.  But we were there.  We got there.  Observe:

It was truly odd.  Then...poor Berta..she was mortified to discover that although I was her guest, I was to be separated from her for the whole night, as I was attending an Introduction and she was continuing her education with a more advanced seminar.  I had no problem going, but Berta was mortified...it was kind of funny.  Afterwards, when we left I suggested we grab a warm coffee for the long ride home and we tried but lo-and-behold...nothing was to go our way this night.  We instead talked and bonded for the ride back.

I definitely needed 24 hours to mull over the events of this past evening.  So there you have it.  Now I am looking at the threshold of possibilities slightly differently from before.  I am uncertain about when I will attend the full 3-day forum.  I would like to go with someone else instead of alone.  If anyone out there wants to take a transformational workshop at the same time as me...inbox me.  No committment.  we would not need to travel together or anything like that...just be nice to have a familiar face in the crowd.  Any takers? 

If you are ...like me...ready to stop dabbling and really really change your life:  Inspire me.  I need the inspiration.

~namaste