Rolling with the Punches

I believe that the expression "rolling with the punches" refers to Pro Boxing.  I am not a Boxing fan...in fact I hate violence.  I dislike competiveness and I despise "climbing the ladder".  I clearly have a few hang-ups which keep me on the outside of what most people consider to be a Successful life.  A year or two ago I would have defined Success in life as Money, Wealth, a Home, a Great Career with Benefits and Perks.  Now I look at this list sadly realizing how far from Success that all is.  In some cases, truly successful people have these things.  Most of the truly successful people of the world do acquire wealth and have great jobs and homes, but they have some deeper qualities too that are less easily attained and often unseen.  To stand in the presence of a truly successful person is to be in the presence of Love.  When a person has Love for and with and through everything they do...they will always have what they need.  When they have what they need, they are free to give and share with others...and THAT is what makes a person Successful.

So right now, in my life I am "Rolling with the Punches".  I sometimes feel very much like I am in a Boxing ring...getting swung at.  The problem is I have no intention of swinging back.  I didn't actually come to fight...I came to impart reason and wisdom and perhaps gain wisdom.  Mostly I came to the ring to heal and harmonize.  But the shots keep coming.  I should be thankful because this is supposed to make me stronger.  I don't feel angry or sad...just a sort of optimistic melancholy.  I still laugh a lot and look for the good in everything.  I laugh with the kids and tickle them and play with them and tell them silly jokes and stories.  I enjoy helping them all with their school work and their musical instruments and their dancing and their poetry.  The children in my care are getting big!  Some of them are already 10 years old!  But they are my life these days and they bring me great joy.  The punches are not from them.

I am learning to ask for help and seek assistance wherever it is.  I have no idea why I am in that position but I feel a tiny bit beaten-up because of it.  I choose to learn from it.  I must learn to accept assistance, share credit, purge bad habits, and relish in downtime.  This lifetime has plenty of work for us to do but it gets done when it needs to be done and not any sooner.  The situations present themselves when they want to for us to have the opportunity to really grow.  Right now I feel beaten up.  I feel beaten by the negative information that I choose to listen to...the negative things I have been taught from childhood.  As I learn to think differently, I am careful to cultivate the "Right Thinking" in the minds and hearts of the youngsters in my care...whether 1year old or 12 years old...this it the time they start to create their mental world.  The Mental world they create will determine their Life Path.  Their life path is OUR future...the future of a planet in crisis.  That beat-down I am carrying around has manifested in my melancholy mood...which is not doing me any good.  Melancholy may as well be anger or depression for all the use it is to me.  So I should be spending time in Meditation and Prayer...visualizing greater things.  This is where my energy must be placed over the next few weeks.

It is challenging to maintain friendships...is it just me?  Friends are people and people are all experiencing some level of disconnect from The Light, from God.  As long as that situation exists, there will always be funny mood changes and inexplicable choices and odd behavior floating around.  I am generally good at accepting this...I am truly understanding.  I prefer to ask direct questions rather than to guess.  I also choose to have deep conversations and really know how a person thinks before presuming to truly understand their situation.  This is a long process...but the ONLY way to really Love your friend.  In order to Love your friend, you must put the effort into them..understand and listen and care deeply.  Otherwise, it is no good.  Most importantly though...be the friend you want to receive.  You want a friend who can keep a confidence?  YOU keep confidences...Want a friend who will be there when you need help? YOU be there when others need help.  I love that mirror!  I love how our lives show in our circumstances.

My writings may be more personal and less structured than would be beneficial, but I am writing for me now.  I had hoped that my writing would be helpful to more people or help direct people toward living The Right Way, but without a format or organization, I find myself musing and reflecting.  It benefits me to practice my writing skills.  I hope my readers at least gain some insight about me...perhaps one day my thoughts, ideas and words will have a greater impact and affect.  But for now, I remember that one day my children will see this when I am gone.  I want my thoughts to be powerful memories about my life struggle and my victory over my Ego and the Inner thoughts that have formed the course of my life. 

~namaste~

Wonderful week to Reflect

This is a wonderful week to just reflect on where we have been the last 8 to 10 months.  When I consider what a  short of a span of time it has been, I recognize it has been a very productive and transitive period for me in my life.  I owe all this to the discovery of the "Secret"- the Law of Attraction.  For that I owe thanks to my Best Friend Danielle and for her getting fired from her job at Sears and needing to drive across town before going to the gym.  Had it not been for that and the combined coincidence that she had the book, The Secret" sitting on her passenger-side seat when I got in her car, I may not have gotten to where I am right now!  Does that sound far-fetched to you?  If it does, you may not be aware of what the Law of Attraction is or how it works.

Let me take you back in time and we can reflect together.  I have only been in the knowledge of the Law of Attraction (LoA) for 7 1/2 months.  I was able to read the first 3 chapters of "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne during that extended trip to the gym last August (2010).  I read it aloud to Dan as she was driving and I hung on every word.  Danielle was less convinced but that is a story for another blog.  As it would come to pass, my birthday was around the corner, August 20th.  I hinted to Danielle that my birthday gift could be found at the Bookstore ( a safe bet any year!).  Anyway, on the evening of August 20th, Danielle's gift sat waiting for me and was of course, my very own copy of "The Secret".  That same week I acquired the 2nd book Rhonda Byrne wrote, "The Power".  The two sit on my nightstand beacuse I refer back to their wisdom daily.

At the time that I first learned about the LoA, I was in a dark place.  I was depressed and miserable about the prospects before me.  My job was dull and I felt it was destined to be a dead-end.  My relationship with my children's Dad was pathetic and had been for a very long time.  I was just wallowing in self-pity.  I had begun to make some changes just before the summer and because of this was experiencing a bit of a happy place, but I needed guidance.  the LoA would be all the guidance I needed....I just had not learned about it yet.

From this point forward, I began to thoroughly research the New Thought Movement and other writers whose ideas were consistent with the LoA. I was delighted to discover that one of my favorite Authors was amongst them:  Dale Carnegie.  Another book that sits by my nightstand is Dale Carnegie's book, "Lifetime Plan for Success".  I am proud to say that I have failed in my imitation of these great thinkers time and time again, but with consistent effort and with persistance in training myself, I have been able to utilize many of their proven techniques and I have been quite successful with it!  I have found ways to show Love while asserting my needs and remaining faithful to my goals.

As I forward my thoughts to today and to this week, I realize that I am tempted to feel that I have failed completely with several important goals.  I have clearly gone backwards!  But I refuse to see things this way and instead I will adapt and change my ways to insure that next year, I will be much better off in these areas then I am right now!  Whatever lessons I needed to learn I shall learn!  Whatever habits I need to lose, I shall lose!  Whatever faith I need to acquire, I will make it my own and be better off for it!  And let's too remember that we must always consider the wonderful and the good things that have occurred!  In the past 8 months, I have caused more to happen in my life and in my family's life than has happened in the last 5 years combined.  Some things were already on motion, but the motion that has been created since just the start of 2011 will have far-reaching affects.

                                                                           I LOVE to make my plans...