Good day for writing

Today is a good day for writing.  I feel inspired, motivated and creative all at the same time.  I have been deep in thought for a while...stuck in thought is a better way to say it.  I see it is taking its toll on my family so I have started to actively try to be more out-of-my-head.  When I opened my eyes, I saw that I was not showing them love...or affection, as I should.  I am also not meeting their needs the best I can.  I am afterall, a vital part of the network I call a family.  As the Mother, I have many important responsibilities and obligations I must honor and fill (overfill).  I have become sloppy- treating them as second best.  My own fantasy-world has become first before them.  So that must stop.  I mean, my fantasy world lives on but it has to be kept in check at all times. 

in the winter, I accomplish a lot of planning ahead of the summer which allows me to coast through summer in the moment and enjoy the best weather of the year.  I have many events and plans coming along in the fall and winter and also a week-vacation in early August which all need advanced preparation to succeed.  I am excited by all the wonderful things coming this year.  Summer should be relaxing with the daycare.  Like last year, we are all eager to strip down to swimwear and bare feet and just wander around the neighborhood and beach admiring the grandeur of nature.  I thoroughly enjoyed summer of 2010 and wish for a summer exactly like it in every way for 2011!  How often can you say you would do things exactly the same next time?  It's a real pleasure!

Writing is another place I feel exhilerated right now!  It's amazing how a new task can bring you to an achievement you never believed may come!  I have many talents and have been sad for so long...failing to utilize them...failing to recognize that by practicing any one of them I would instantly alter my mood and raise my energy to a higher level!  Now I cannot be stopped or altered.  It is like a high I am reaching!  Writing, singing, yoga, striving for personal excellence in my appearance and self-care as well as in my financial life and work ethic.  It is wonderful and exhilerating.  I have cast-off my past fears and unhappinesses and have found new sources of joy!

I wish this path for all my friends and family.  It is the path less travelled and has made all the difference...for me.