Correcting Past Mistakes

This is a difficult part of life but one we all must accept.  I do not live in regret, I am not that type of person.  I simply say, I am wrong and I must change.  When we are teens and we are rebellious, there is no way to hear reason.  The longer we stay stubborn like that or stuck in "my way is best" mode, the longer it takes us to correct (correction)...to make corrections.  This idea of Correction is from kabbalah.  To learn more about this, visit www.ukabbalah.com
Correction and Restriction are the key points of kabbalah.  These are a common thread existing within most religious beliefs, like Christianity.  But in my life I have absorbed it in, as if by osmosis.  I believe in it.  I believe we all are designed to have desire but choose restriction and when we are going the wrong way, to use correction.

Anyway, as for my own correction, I am feeling troubled and I am using meditation and faith to begin making correct some of the things I have done wrong, or allowed that just are wrong. The reason I do not live in regret and never would allow such words is that it would make illegitimate all that was created from the union that I now seek to dissolve.  All that existed was not bad or wrong.  But clearly, I made choices at the wrong time...when I was not ready to make them.  This was my major failure that I now must bear the consequences of.  I do not however, have to continue on a path that is leading me to sadness, depression, loss of self-worth, mental abuse, emotional abuse etc.

I have more faith and power inside then I give myself credit for.  Whatever comes, I am more than equipped to handle it.  For some reason, I continuously fail to recognize my personal power.  My power comes from asking The Light for help.  First, admitting I need the help and asking to be the Vessel for goodness to flow through me, not to be just given to me, but for me to be used to deliver it outwardly.  This is what I desire.

Each day that passes I am aware that I am less angry about what I saw, what I discovered and what my 5 senses delivered to me.  But inside, I remain Certain of what my extra sensory perception is telling me...what my intuition just knows.  I often find that I know things about others...about what they will say or do, about what they did say and do, about what they are thinking and even the moment they change their minds about something they previously thought or about doing something they were going to do.  I can almost see the movement of energy as if with my eyes, but it is a mental picture.  Because of this ability, I feel it is unfair to dwell on the physical evidence when I know there are deeper reasons for all things.  I choose to focus my actions on the basis of those deeper reasons.

I do not want to  merely exist

in a physical way.  I desire to be The Light...for my kids, friends, family and people who I do not yet know.  If True Love is meant for me, then I must believe it will present itself.  I will not need to go looking for it.