Inventing Yourself

Inventing our primary self happens autonomically.  It requires no effort but allowing so-called "nature" to take it's course.  But some astute individuals will realize that there can only be true happiness and true success, if we purposefully set about to create the life, the image and the reality we desire.  I am grateful that our universe has been designed in just this way.  That as long as I have life left in me, I have another moment to create, recreate or adjust my reality, my picture, my life.

Like this blossoming lotus, I can open myself up to the world...I can allow some of it in.  But I am delicate too and easily affected by the harshness that sometimes accompanies openning.  The exterior of the lotus is where it is fragile.  Under the surface however, exists the bulb which can produce regrowth and can go on and on and reinvent herself in a new blossom. 

It is vital to all people that they purposely set their course, rather than drift about aimlessly until they end up somewhere they are not fond of.  In my future, I have imagined many fine things.  Some of these things are probably a long way off from appearing but they will appear.  My question for myself right now is a simple one:

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO GIVE?

If I am going to receive the wealth of blessings that I surely will receive, what am I willing to give?

I have been answering this question for  a while.  It is a hard question...one posed by the author of "Think and Grow Rich".  Whatever you desire comes form a give and receive relationship.  If you plan to receive a blessing in your lifetime, or just to achieve what you conceive...you must offer as much in return or more!  I have a lot to offer the world.  I often get caught up in my baser desires and this is where the majority of us stay..exist...live.  Not me.  Not anymore.  Not for the past 6 months since I learned this about myself.  So where does that leave me? 

My journey is more of a quest.  I am in search of the Truth.  I realize we live in difficult times.  People around me have many fears and some have serious weaknesses.  Some have a combination of the two.  We are all afraid of something, but we must keep on making the effort regardless.  We must feel the fear and do it anyway.  We must face the unknown with courage, and yes it is ok to be afraid of the outcome.  It is frightening.  Many people I know have found themselves forced to this precipice where they had to accept circumstances that were beyond their control and not what they desired.  In my case, I am the one about to cause another human being to face this and it will hurt that person...me and a few others too.  So we are all going to feel the pain together but it must be done.

In a few months, I imagine life will be looking very different.  We will all be living very differently than how we live now.  I have so few words on this.  There just are no words.  For now I will focus my writing outward because inside there is a lot of dullness.

~namaste