A Star is born

This could be the day that everything changes.  Or this could be the week or month...but indeed this is a special time, and a time to believe that anything is possible.  A recent development has raised my awareness of  THE SECRET working in my life- the Law of Attraction.  I find myself more amused than ever with my daughter Annika.  It's like I suddenly see her in a whole new light.  She has been given a rare opportunity to break-out as an actor.  She hates that I call her an actor..."Mommy I am an Actress...".  I explain to her that it is a sign of confidence to refer to yourself as an actor.  Anyway, she seems not to believe me.  The point is... WONDERFUL opportunities are coming her way.  As things have unfolded, I feel more and more gratitude coming to my heart.  I do not even need to dig down deep for it- it is just there.

I am amazed at how easily I feel things now.  I must have been very numb for a very long time.  It altered me.  depression, anxiety and anger...lingering for years, interfered with my judgement and created many problems for me.  But now, with better habits and self-LOVE for the first time in my life, I am transformed.  I feel like the real me is here at last.  It only took 36 years!  As a teenager and preteen I had a sense that I was destined for something greater than an average life.  But overshadowed by family issues, I was unable to muster much confidence to try things beyond my French Horn and the Band.  Getting into college certainly increased my confidence but it did not last.  I would experience something positive and then soon after it would seem to fade away into a great big fat negative. 

So my inutition and ambition are working together in perfect harmony right now.  I feel like I have a sled on icy snow on the top of a hill...the sled is sitting there..the hill is slippery and perfect.  I have my winter gear on and I feel ready for the adventure of this fun slide....at the bottom of the hill is everything I could ever hope for just waiting for me.  Warm cocoa and a party with my friends.  So why am I scared to hop on?  One reason- I fear the speed....can't I just walk down the hill?  Nope.  Apparently if I want my party and my cocoa, I have to use the sled.  But I am scared of this super big hill!  What if I fall?  What if the sled topples over?  What if I can't handle the feeling of virtually flying through the air?

Well, I get to choose.  I have walked away from many good opportunities in the past.  But for some reason, serendipitously, everyone and everything is aligned to support it...no one is actually putting blockades in front of me (of Us)...so why would I do so?  We all know why.  Who's afraid of succeeding?  I AM!