Rolling with the Punches

I believe that the expression "rolling with the punches" refers to Pro Boxing.  I am not a Boxing fan...in fact I hate violence.  I dislike competiveness and I despise "climbing the ladder".  I clearly have a few hang-ups which keep me on the outside of what most people consider to be a Successful life.  A year or two ago I would have defined Success in life as Money, Wealth, a Home, a Great Career with Benefits and Perks.  Now I look at this list sadly realizing how far from Success that all is.  In some cases, truly successful people have these things.  Most of the truly successful people of the world do acquire wealth and have great jobs and homes, but they have some deeper qualities too that are less easily attained and often unseen.  To stand in the presence of a truly successful person is to be in the presence of Love.  When a person has Love for and with and through everything they do...they will always have what they need.  When they have what they need, they are free to give and share with others...and THAT is what makes a person Successful.

So right now, in my life I am "Rolling with the Punches".  I sometimes feel very much like I am in a Boxing ring...getting swung at.  The problem is I have no intention of swinging back.  I didn't actually come to fight...I came to impart reason and wisdom and perhaps gain wisdom.  Mostly I came to the ring to heal and harmonize.  But the shots keep coming.  I should be thankful because this is supposed to make me stronger.  I don't feel angry or sad...just a sort of optimistic melancholy.  I still laugh a lot and look for the good in everything.  I laugh with the kids and tickle them and play with them and tell them silly jokes and stories.  I enjoy helping them all with their school work and their musical instruments and their dancing and their poetry.  The children in my care are getting big!  Some of them are already 10 years old!  But they are my life these days and they bring me great joy.  The punches are not from them.

I am learning to ask for help and seek assistance wherever it is.  I have no idea why I am in that position but I feel a tiny bit beaten-up because of it.  I choose to learn from it.  I must learn to accept assistance, share credit, purge bad habits, and relish in downtime.  This lifetime has plenty of work for us to do but it gets done when it needs to be done and not any sooner.  The situations present themselves when they want to for us to have the opportunity to really grow.  Right now I feel beaten up.  I feel beaten by the negative information that I choose to listen to...the negative things I have been taught from childhood.  As I learn to think differently, I am careful to cultivate the "Right Thinking" in the minds and hearts of the youngsters in my care...whether 1year old or 12 years old...this it the time they start to create their mental world.  The Mental world they create will determine their Life Path.  Their life path is OUR future...the future of a planet in crisis.  That beat-down I am carrying around has manifested in my melancholy mood...which is not doing me any good.  Melancholy may as well be anger or depression for all the use it is to me.  So I should be spending time in Meditation and Prayer...visualizing greater things.  This is where my energy must be placed over the next few weeks.

It is challenging to maintain friendships...is it just me?  Friends are people and people are all experiencing some level of disconnect from The Light, from God.  As long as that situation exists, there will always be funny mood changes and inexplicable choices and odd behavior floating around.  I am generally good at accepting this...I am truly understanding.  I prefer to ask direct questions rather than to guess.  I also choose to have deep conversations and really know how a person thinks before presuming to truly understand their situation.  This is a long process...but the ONLY way to really Love your friend.  In order to Love your friend, you must put the effort into them..understand and listen and care deeply.  Otherwise, it is no good.  Most importantly though...be the friend you want to receive.  You want a friend who can keep a confidence?  YOU keep confidences...Want a friend who will be there when you need help? YOU be there when others need help.  I love that mirror!  I love how our lives show in our circumstances.

My writings may be more personal and less structured than would be beneficial, but I am writing for me now.  I had hoped that my writing would be helpful to more people or help direct people toward living The Right Way, but without a format or organization, I find myself musing and reflecting.  It benefits me to practice my writing skills.  I hope my readers at least gain some insight about me...perhaps one day my thoughts, ideas and words will have a greater impact and affect.  But for now, I remember that one day my children will see this when I am gone.  I want my thoughts to be powerful memories about my life struggle and my victory over my Ego and the Inner thoughts that have formed the course of my life. 

~namaste~